Anxiety and Realization…..

Now is when I get serious, and I don’t usually get serious on tumblr because its where I go to be happy and find funny junk, but I thought I would get a little serious for once. Anxiety sucks. I hate it. I just want it to go away for ever in my closet and shut the door and slam it and lock it away with a key and keep the key away forever. But the truth is that won’t ever be able to happen. I will have to suffer with this almost unbearable weight on my shoulders my entire life. It will end relationships, friendships, bring down others, and sometimes even ruin fun. Despite there being ways to cope, Anxiety like a disease is out to kill me.  But the truth is I won’t ever give in. I will keep on fighting and so should others with anxiety, because I’ve learned I don’t want fear to control my life, I want to be happy, and try new things and go new places and meet new people, but in the back of my head there is a voice almost screaming horrific things that COULD happen…… But I won’t ever let it truly get to me. Because I need to learn to take control, and push that voice away….. Because I will be me. And nothing can stop that :)))